I tried to pull this up yesterday to write a journal entry but the internet at Ron and Lisa's is subpar, so I ended up writing in my hand written journal instead. I found it interesting, when I switched over from the hand written journal to online, it felt foreign, and almost like I was doing something wrong. Like writing can only be done if it's with a paper and pen or something. But then last night, when this wasn't working, I found myself being little annoyed that I couldn't put my journal entry here! As if now, my mind has switched, and journaling can only be done on the computer! I don't think it really matters, I just know that for me, it DOES MATTER!
I was listening to the Collin K. podcast the other day and he was talking about the top 10 reasons kids have anxiety and they were FASCINATING! Some of them I already knew, but some I had never even thought of before. I didn't get them all written down, but here are the one's I did get.
The family hierarchy is out whack! Parents should be the one's who are in charge, not the kids. Parents should be setting boundaries with associated consequences and so much of that is slipping as parents see a need to be "the cool parents".
Kids are not given enough free time to play. Everything is so structured and as a result, they don't have the time to learn how to think for themselves or resolve problems by themselves.
PARENTS ARE PARENTING OUT OF GUILT AND FEAR! I capitalized this one because of how strongly I agree with it! This was me once and I am so glad that is not me anymore. This teaches kids that uncomfortable feelings are bad.
Adults don't know how to help kids face their fears in a productive manner so they remove all barriers that may cause hardships in their kids lives.
KIDS ARE NOT LEARNING EMOTIONAL SKILLS
Happiness is all the rage. Kids think that if they are not happy all the time then something is wrong. See number five.
ELECTRONICS!!! They are offering an ever present unhealthy escape/expectations of reality. See all of the above! Why face your uncomfortable emotions if you can just tune them out by scrolling IG? Why work through emotions when you could just play a game instead?
This last week has been hard! WHY? Because of everything listed above! I have been struggling with a lot of them. WHY? Because I have been too glued to my phone. Sometimes, I hate my phone!
Today I woke up and deleted the Instagram app. Not my accounts, I still want those. I just don't want to be on it for a while, until I feel normal again! Until I feel my confidence in myself come back and the happiness that I usually carry with me return.
And you know what that means? Journaling! Reading my scriptures! Because these two things allow me to one, face my own emotions and work through them and two, connect with God. And when I am self aware and can work on those things with God, everything in life is better! And what that boils down to really is this, I know who I am and I know and feel my worth. And right now, I'm struggling with that.
I pulled up the lyrics to the sing called "Noise" by Kenney Chesney and it was so perfect for how I've felt this past week! And isn't it crazy that the noise of the world can fill our heads and steal our feelings of joy in just one week?!?! Gotta stay close to God, man! It's so worth it!! Anyhow, here are those lyrics.
Noise
Wrecking balls, downtown construction Bottles breaking, jukebox buzzing Cardboard sign says the lord is coming Tick, tick, tock Rumors turn the mills back home Parking lot kids with the speakers blown We didn't turn it on but we can't turn it off, off, off Sometimes I wonder how did we get here Seems like all we ever hear is
Noise
Yeah we scream, yeah we shout 'til we don't have a voice In the streets, in the crowds, it ain't nothing but noise Drowning out all the dreams of this Tennessee boy Just tryna be heard in all this noise
Twenty-four hour television, get so loud that no one listens Sex and money and politicians talk, talk, talk But there really ain't no conversation Ain't nothing left to the imagination Trapped in our phones and we can't make it stop, stop
This noise
Yeah we scream, yeah we shout 'til we don't have a voice In the streets, in the crowds, it ain't nothing but noise Drowning out all the dreams of this Tennessee boy Just tryna be heard in all this noise
Every room, every house, every shade of noise All the floors, all the walls, they all shake with noise We can't sleep, we can't think, can't escape the noise We can't take the noise, so we just make
Noise
Yeah we scream, yeah we shout 'til we don't have a voice In the streets, in the crowds, it ain't nothing but noise Drowning out all the dreams of this Tennessee boy Just tryna be heard in all this noise
All this noise Can't take the noise Can't take the noise Can't stand the noise Can't take the noise
I mean, are these not spot on? I loved the line that said trapped in our phones and we can't make it stop. I also loved the line that said the noise is drowning out his dreams!!!! YES! That is exactly how I have felt this past week. With everything going on in my own head, there has been no time think about my own dreams! The SHINE project and what I want to do with it. No, no inspiration! No work has been done on it! Just feeling bad for myself and wishing I were skinnier! It's over! This is over! I'm turning off the noise, I'm making it stop and I'm reconnecting with myself and with God!
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